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title: "Grief, Sadness, Mourning"
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published_at: "2026-06-23T13:09:56+00:00"
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excerpt: "I thought I was doing better. I woke up and didn’t start sobbing. As the morning progressed, I was okay. Bret popped into my head and I was sad, but not crying. Progress. Progress to acceptance? Maybe. Then I wrote..."
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# Grief, Sadness, Mourning

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Seth Goldstein

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June 23, 2026

Sol 4189

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I thought I was doing better.

I woke up and didn’t start sobbing.

As the morning progressed, I was okay.

Bret popped into my head and I was sad, but not crying.

Progress.

Progress to acceptance? Maybe.

Then I wrote my parents asking when I could see them.

I started to cry.

Writing that email made it even more real.

My brother had died.

Too young.

Too sudden.

Too tragic.

I miss knowing that he’s living his best life in Colorado.

I miss knowing that I’ll ever see him again.

I miss him.

I’m really fucking sad. 🥺😭

They say in time the sting will lessen.

I don’t believe them. I really don’t.

I lost my fucking brother. How will that ever be less of a sting?!

Ugh. 😟😢

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