Category: Family

  • Have I Finished Mourning Or Just Accepted It?

    Have I Finished Mourning Or Just Accepted It?

    My younger brother, Bret, died tragically hiking in Colorado early last month. It’s hard to believe it’s been that long. I’ve been through all the stages of grief, but now I think I’ve settled on the acceptance stage. It could be because my wife is recovering from surgery and I’m in charge of so much…

  • Every Morning

    Every Morning

    Every morning I wake up and the first thing that pops into my head, most of the time very briefly, is: fuck Bret died. Sometimes I cry. Sometimes I just think about what a fantastic guy he was. Sometimes I think about the what ifs. I know the last one isn’t fair to do to…

  • Grief, Sadness, Mourning

    Grief, Sadness, Mourning

    I thought I was doing better. I woke up and didn’t start sobbing. As the morning progressed, I was okay. Bret popped into my head and I was sad, but not crying. Progress. Progress to acceptance? Maybe. Then I wrote my parents asking when I could see them. I started to cry. Writing that email…

  • On Loss And Mourning

    On Loss And Mourning

    Loss is a tough thing to deal with. Whether it be the loss of a pet or worse the loss of a family member. Even non-death losses are tough. One minute your fine, the next minute you’re a complete sobbing wreck. Mourning the loss is a natural thing. But that being said, it’s not easy.…

  • Bret

    Bret

    I’m a writer. This is how I deal with things… I write. Here goes… Monday I got a call that I don’t think anyone wants to hear. It was my dad. Bret, half-brother, had fallen while hiking in Colorado. He died. Those words… he died. He died. Fuck! Those words. I still can’t believe it.…